Europe Highlights: Lisbon


I went to Europe last month. The most important reason was to be part of a dear friend’s wedding in Portugal; a secondary reason was to celebrate having passed my comprehensive exam by relaxing a bit before diving into the next phase of my Ph.D.  I decided to take pictures on a pocket digital camera instead of using my terrible phone camera, and I’ve just finished (mostly) sorting through and uploading pictures from my trip. 

Twenty-six days of travel cannot be easily compressed into a single post, however, so I’m going to dole this out in chunks* for the benefit of you, my reader. I’m also grouping pictures in galleries towards the end. 

*like pineapple. Get it? =D =D 

Chapter One: Loomings

I arrived in Lisbon on Tuesday night. The only pictures I took were terrible blurry ones of the coast of somewhere (England? France?) as we flew over. That night I had dinner at a little bistro just down the street (i.e. up the hill) from my bnb. I should mention that everything in Lisbon is either up or down a hill. There are no level places unless you’re walking along the ridge of a hill or down by the shore. 

But back to dinner: one advantage of traveling by yourself is that there is almost always room for you at a restaurant. I took a seat at a small table adjacent to another small table which was occupied by two guests who were about to leave. While I was ordering dinner, the nearby guests left; when my tuna steak arrived, two more guests were just sitting down and the man said to his friend “I’m having THAT” (as he points to my plate) “but with fries.” You can’t ask for a better conversational opening, so I got to chatting with Danny and his friend Ulla. Danny is a local surfer; Ulla was visiting from Finland. Her English wasn’t quite as good as Danny’s but anything was better than my non-existent Portugese, so we made do. Danny tried surfing in California once, but the burden of over-regulation really dampened his feelings towards CA. In Portugal, he said, if you want to camp on the beach, light a fire, have a drink with friends, you can. In California “they come DOWN on you! It is a police state!” Truly, there is no place like home.  

Chapter Two: Exploring the City

On my first full day in Lisbon (Wednesday) I wandered around the city a bit and visited a museum. It was a rainy blustery day, and I did not have cash in Euro which made for a bit of an adventure getting myself a) breakfast and b) an umbrella. I eventually did acquire both, though.

Anna Dean joined me that afternoon and we met Natalie (the bride), Pedro (the groom), Miss Susan (Natalie’s mom) and Natalie’s godparents for dinner at a Brazilian steakhouse. On Thursday, Anna and I slept in (#jetlag!) and then went exploring at some churches. Friday we explored a little more before hopping a bus out to the village where the wedding was being held.  

Here are people-pictures, because people are important. 

The Rubber Ducky Conspiracy

We could not figure out what was up with rubber ducks, but they also popped up again later in my travels!

Lisbon Streets and Architecture

Pictures from the Museu Calouste Gulbenkian

Calouste Gulbenkian was basically a Portugese oil baron who endowed a museum at his death. The foundation that runs the museum is also active in Iraq (because oil), so the museum has a large collection of middle-eastern items. 


Dorothy Sayers on “The Woman’s Perspective”

I was reading a wonderful book earlier this week: The Gospel in Dorothy Sayers, recently released by Plough Books. I’m writing a review that will be published somewhere, hopefully, in the near-ish future. But right now I just wanted to share a quote that I  rediscovered on Monday night. I think Sayers is dead-right in taking aim at the sort of identity-politics that can drive a lot of our own discussions:

“Where, I think, a great deal of confusion has arisen is in a failure to distinguish between special knowledge and special ability. There are certain questions on which what is called ‘the woman’s point of view’ is valuable, because they involve special knowledge. Women should be consulted about such things as housing and domestic architecture because, under present circumstances, they have still to wrestle a good deal with houses and kitchen sinks and can bring special knowledge to the problem. Similarly, some of them (though not all) know more about children than the majority of men, and their opinion, as women, is of value. In the same way, the opinion of colliers is of value about coal-mining, and the opinion of doctors is valuable about disease. But there are other questions–as for example, about literature or finance–on which the ‘woman’s point of view’ has no value at all. In fact, it does not exist. No special knowledge is involved, and a woman’s opinion on literature or finance is only valuable as the judgement of an individual. I am occasionally desired by congenital imbeciles to say something about the writing of detective fiction ‘from the woman’s point of view.’ To such demands, one can only say, ‘Go away and don’t be silly. You might as well ask what is the female angle on an equilateral triangle.’ “

The Gospel in Dorothy Sayers, Plough Books, 2018. p. 162 (emphasis added)

Black Lamb and Grey Falcon

51QpWjc4H5L._SX325_BO1,204,203,200_Alan Jacobs has frequently praised Rebecca West’s Black Lamb and Grey Falcon; I have been reading it this summer, and I can only agree that it is a stunning work. I keep highlighting passages, and I’ll probably share more as I keep going.

At one point, West describes riding the train into Yugoslavia in a 1st-class compartment full of Germans who are complaining about the government of the Nazis. One of them…

…owned an apartment in Berlin, and had for six months been struggling with a wholly unforeseen and inexplicable demand for extra taxes on it. He did not allege that the tax was unjust. He seemed to think that the demand was legal enough, but that the relevant law was so complicated, and was so capriciously interpreted by the Nazi courts, that he had been unable to foresee how much he would be asked for, and was still at quite a loss to calculate what might be exacted in the future.”

Other passengers describe their difficulties in the face of a government that installs party officers in their factories, or requires hairdressers to know Goebbels’s birthday.

Black Lamb and Grey Falcon was published in 1941, based on several trips to Yugoslavia in the late ’30s, so her assessment of the Nazis is not shaded by a post-war perspective. West pities these Germans:

They were all of them falling to pieces under the emotional and intellectual strain laid on them by their Government, poor Laocoöns strangled by red tape. It was obvious that by getting the population into this state the Nazis had guaranteed the continuance of their system; for none of these people could have given any effective support to any rival party that wanted to seize power, and indeed their affairs, which were thoroughly typical, were in such an inextricable state of confusion that no sane party would now wish to take over the government, since it would certainly see nothing but failure ahead. Their misery seemed to have abolished every possible future for them. I reflected that if a train were filled with the citizens of the Western Roman Empire in the fourth century they would have made much the same complaints. The reforms of Diocletian and Constantine created a condition of exorbitant and unforeseeable taxes, of privileged officials, of a complicated civil administration that made endless demands on its subjects and gave them very little security in return.

Here’s my little bit of commentary: There is a lot of talk right now, even if mostly of the idle chatter variety, about “how we get Hitler.” It might be worth remembering that regulation and red tape are part of the foundation for such an order just as much as nationalist prejudices.

A poem

Back when I taught 12th grade Rhetoric, one of my classroom “party tricks” was to have my students tell me about an assignment for their British Literature class (which immediately followed mine). Then, in the last 20 minutes of class, I would whip up something to fulfill the assignment. I was a bit of a show-off.

I recently rediscovered one of my efforts, and hereby share it with the world (the line “like a blizzard in September” was required, and it was supposed to use a roughly Anglo-Saxon alliterative meter).

Cookies are blessings     when carefully crafted,
stuffed chock-full     of chocolate chips,
oatmeal-laden,     luscious and warm.
But other kinds     are killers of soul,
wierd and baneful     like a blizzard in September,
an inversion of order,     orc-like and evil
which substitute raisins,     squishy vine-candies,
lying, treacherous,     treasonous lumps,
deceiving the guileless     guiltless mouth-filler,
bringing tears,     tearing away joy.

Irving Update Summer 2018


Another semester has ended, and it’s time for an update! Brace yourselves, there’s a lot going on. I won’t blame you if you get confused and lost and have to ask me questions about this all over again next time you see me.



This last semester was my final semester of coursework for the Ph.D. In order to get my Ph.D., I have to fulfill several requirements.

  • ☑️ 66 credits, divided as follows:
    • ☑️21 in the IPS Core
    • ☑️36 in my concentration (Politics)
    • ☑️9 in electives
  • ☑️Ancient Language
  • ☑️Qualifying Exam
  • ☑️Modern Language (in progress)
  • Comprehensive Exam
  • Dissertation Proposal
  • Dissertation Defense

Last year, I took four classes per semester in order to complete all my credits. In Fall 2017, I took:

  • IPS: Hegel, Nietzsche, and Dostoevski
  • Medieval Political Philosophy
  • Thucydides
  • Leo Strauss

In Spring 2018, I took:

  • IPS: Homer and Vergil
  • Cicero
  • Johannine Writings
  • Philosophy of Law

This Summer, I am taking Italian for Reading Knowledge. It’s an intensive summer course which meets 2 nights a week, 4 hours at a time. The point is not to be able to speak Italian, but to be able to read it. One of the real highlights of this class is that all six of us who are taking it have seriously studied at least one other language, and I think we also have all had at least limited exposure to a second foreign language. It means we don’t have to sit through three hours of explanation and confusion on the mysteries of what counts as a relative pronoun or an indirect object. The professor can just say “here is what you do for an indirect object in Italian and here are the exceptions” and we are able to get it.

Later this summer I’m going to attend a week-long seminar on Natural Law hosted by the American Public Philosophy Institute. It’s here in Dallas on the UD campus, so I won’t have to travel for it.

Moving forward, I plan to take my Comprehensive Exam in October 2018; after that, I have to get a dissertation proposal approved and then write & defend the dissertation itself. You could say that I’m sort of at the halfway point in the program. I know one intensely disciplined and motivated colleague who finished his dissertation a year and a half after he finished coursework, but his is a rare accomplishment. I will have to do a lot of research for my topic, especially given the depth of the existing scholarship on the subject, so I will probably take another three years or so to write and defend.

If you’ve known me for any length of time, it should come as no surprise that I am planning to write about Dante. I don’t have a finished proposal yet (let’s be honest, I don’t have a started proposal yet, at least not on paper), but I expect it will be answering something along the lines of “Why does Dante put a city in Hell but not in Heaven?”

In one final piece of school-related news, I was recently chosen as a recipient of the Hatton W. Sumners Foundation scholarship. Mr. Sumners is a fascinating character: he was the Democratic chair of the US House Judiciary Committee (and widely considered to be a top candidate for the next Supreme Court vacancy) when FDR proposed the court-packing plan. Sumners ruined his political future by opposing the plan and stalling it in committee. If you’re nerdy like me, you’ll get a kick out of reading the excerpt from the congressional record in which he is questioned about his recalcitrance (skip to the last pages for the Q&A). The scholarship is substantial enough that with a little frugality I will not be required to work during the school year.




Last fall, I started teaching Introduction to Ethics for Richland College, one of the schools in the Dallas County Community College system. It felt really good to be back in front of a classroom again. In a funny twist of fate, my first class was actually a Dual-Credit class at an area charter school: I was teaching high school students on a high school campus, but it was a college-level class. I taught the same class again in the Spring, but this time on the Richland campus. The spring class was very small, but I really enjoyed the close interaction with my students.

Taking four classes and teaching one kept me busy enough that I couldn’t also keep working at Chick-fil-A. I took a leave of absence for the Fall semester, returned during the Christmas break, and then officially resigned when the Spring semester started again. It was a wonderful place to work, and I am incredibly grateful for the experience and growth I was given working there, but it was time to move on. I still can’t stop saying “my pleasure” when anybody says “thank you.”

Fancy archival staple remover

I did pick up some work on the UD campus, however, working as a graduate assistant in the Donald and Louise Cowan Archives. Drs. Donald and Louise were both massively influential in the formation of the University of Dallas; they thought and wrote a great deal about the liberal arts and about literature. The University has established a center for organizing their papers and other resources so that they can be made available to the public. In the fall I was mostly doing a first-pass over the papers (many of which are still loosely piled in boxes), removing obvious trash, duplicates, and items which don’t belong to our archive. I also got to use a fancy archival staple remover called a “spatula” (see picture). In the spring, I was cataloging and sorting the Cowan Archive book holdings [Shout out to Helen Howell, my cousin and the New Saint Andrews College librarian, for the invaluable experience I got working for her one summer when NSA was inventorying their holdings].

I am also working on the editorial board of Ramify: the Journal of the Braniff Graduate School of the Liberal Arts. I am an Associate Editor for Volume 7 (which should be published within the month) and then I will take over as Editor-In-Chief for Volume 8.

For one month this summer, I am working as a receptionist at Cistercian Preparatory School; it’s a boy’s school just across the highway from UD, and they run four week-long summer camps in June and July. I sit at the front desk, answer phones, and do Italian homework. It is a gift of a job (and the camps run like a well-oiled machine…it’s very impressive). It’s also highly air-conditioned, so I find myself in the peculiar position of turning on a space heater for my feet. In Texas. In the middle of Summer.


When the summer camps wrap up, I’ll be heading over to see my family in northern New Mexico; my sister is moving from Idaho to Texas (College Station, a few hours south of DFW), and we’re all going to meet up at the family cabin in the mountains.

I’m hoping to travel to a couple conferences this fall: one on Christianity and Literature at Oklahoma Baptist University, and one on Dante in Birmingham, AL.

In November, I’m going to be in the wedding of a dear friend who is getting married in Portugal (her fiance is Portugese, and between immigration restrictions and her future father-in-law’s generosity, it was simpler to have the wedding there). I’M GOING TO BE IN EUROPE! Since the biggest hurdle to visiting Europe is getting over there in the first place, and since I don’t have to get back to a job, I’m going to take a couple extra weeks to see some places on my bucket list: Oxford, London, Florence, and Rome. (Note: because I am a genius at travel planning, I fly back on Thanksgiving day.)

Looking to the even more-distant future, I have applied to work with the New Mexico State Legislature as a Republican analyst for the 2019 legislative session. If that works out, I’ll be in Santa Fe for a couple months at the start of next year.


Inspired by an essayist I follow on Twitter (Phil Christman, who wrote that tremendous meditation on what it means to be Midwestern last year), I am keeping track of the books I read in 2018 on a twitter thread.

I also got a MoviePass card this year and have been doing my best to take advantage of it. As with the books, I’m keeping track of my movies on their own twitter thread:

I’m still regularly attending Chapel of the Cross (a Reformed Episcopal Church in the ACNA), but I have also occasionally visited St. Mark’s Episcopal Church in Irving. Chapel is 20 minutes away and only does communion at 8am during the school year, while St. Mark’s is only 3 minutes from my house and has a 10am communion service. I’ve also visited All Saints Presbyterian (CREC) over in Fort Worth for a baptism.

Every year I stay in Irving, I find myself more and more delighted with the community of friends I have. Moving is hard, and during my first year in Texas I was incredibly skeptical of all the people I met who said that they loved the community. Friendships take time, but they can flourish … even in Dallas.

ON THE OTHER HAND: I still have nothing good to say about the traffic or construction.

My Favorite Things: Noisli

Grad school involves being by yourself. A lot. Even when you take a lot of steps to balance out the isolation, being a student necessarily involves a lot of solitary endeavor. You have to read for yourself,* you have to write for yourself, and you have to think for yourself. All of these things can comfortably be accomplished in the presence of other people as long as those people aren’t actually demanding anything from you, and I find for myself that I actually work better when there is a baseline level of atmospheric distraction. I have described it before in these terms: if there isn’t a small level of external distraction, I have to go seek out the distraction (which then occupies my conscious mind much more fully than is conducive to productivity). In other words: if there isn’t chatter in the background, I go looking for chatter on facebook and twitter.

I attribute this desire for a sociable atmosphere to being an extrovert, but I could be wrong about that. What I know is that coffee shops are an expensive study habit; on top of that, even if I choose to study on campus (for free!) studying away from home means that I don’t have access to all the resources I would like to have handy. I can’t carry three books each for my four classes in a single bag, and I feel awkward schlepping two ginormous tote bags around. The dilemma, then: study at home where it is cheap and all of my things are, but I am alone and things are spookily quiet sometimes, or study in public while either imitating a packhorse or risking that I will be without something essential, and also potentially spending money that I could have saved by staying home.

I don’t always choose the same option. Sometimes I really do need to just get out of the house. But when I’m home, I have found a terrific white noise app that helps create the minimal necessary “distraction” so I can focus. The app is called Noisli, and it’s available for Android, Chrome, and iOS. Besides traditional “white noise” sounds like rain, wind, or static, it also has a “cafe” track with plates clinking, distant chatter, and occasional laughter. I layer that with the train tracks and a fireplace sound to create a really cozy background track for studying. It’s actually handy even when you *are* studying in public places, because it can block out the (often very weird!) conversations that people have in public.

tl;dr: Noisli is a great white noise app and it helps me study.



*Admittedly, a it is possible to read for others if you read aloud. But many of the texts one reads in grad school and many of the ways of reading expected by professors are not actually suited to read-aloud. Additionally, the quantity one has to read in grad school would indicate against reading aloud everything that was assigned in a semester. The eye is faster than the ear. 

A couple notes on being single

First: A friend linked to this blog post a while back: “Five things singles wish married couples knew.”  I like that this is true to its title. It isn’t “five things you can do for your single friends”, it’s just information. And it’s true. I think a lot of my married friends already know this stuff (having been single themselves and all) but it’s a good reminder.

Second: Alastair Roberts has been answering questions on CuriousCat. The questions may vary widely, but Roberts’ thoughtfulness and respect do not. One of his answers (to a question about prolonged or permanent bachelorhood) struck me as perhaps one of the most encouragingly frank statements about single life I have ever read.

While we should always focus on our own agency, responsibility, and capacity in whatever situation we find ourselves in, there are a great many situations in which it won’t be enough to change matters in the ways that we desire.

What it can do, however, is save us from acting and thinking as the abject victims of circumstance. It can make us aware of the ways in which, by giving other people such as a spouse such an elevated place in our imagined happiness, we are engaged in fairly delusional thinking, pinning expectations on them that they could never possibly fulfill. Once we recognize this and act accordingly, we can be a lot happier, whether in or out of a relationship.

In our society, it is easy to believe that it is only possible to be fulfilled and live a meaningful life if you are in a relationship or married. But marriage really isn’t the only way to satisfy our basic human needs for purpose, belonging, stewardship, dignity, and meaning. And when marriage is unlikely, it is incredibly important to reject the notion that its impossibility means that we must learn to live without all of these other things. We shouldn’t surrender ourselves to unfulfilment. While there are certain things that we will lack (a sexual union and biological children, for instance), if we take responsibility for pursuing these things in other ways, we can be fulfilled. This doesn’t mean that it won’t be difficult and painful, but we can rise to our full stature through difficulty and pain: we can’t do so without the satisfaction of our basic human existential needs.

A lack of discomfort can inure us to deep existential lack in our lives. The unhappily unmarried person, who may well have to learn to live in their unchosen state is pushed to learn lessons to which others never truly awake, never developing the wisdom to recognize and escape stunted aspects of their lives.